I bet on a horse

I bet on a horse and she didn't win.

And I kept on throwing money in.
I bet on a horse who I thought had duty.
But I was tricked by her exquisite beauty.

I bet on a horse and she was a dud.

Nearing the finish line she made a big thud.

And she dragged me right into the mud.

I bet on a horse and I thought she was regal.

Such beauty and grace was almost illegal.
Although she was a pretty little filly,
In the end she made me look silly.
I thought my success was well assured.
And that finally finally my luck had turned.
But she turned out to be nothing but a turd.

I bet on a horse and she didn't win.
The way I loved her was almost a sin.
Oh how I marveled when I touched her pelt.
You have no idea how good that felt.
She was a beautiful princess.
But I learned to mistrust
Her conniving ways.
Oh how her charms could sway.

I bet on a horse that I thought was my destiny.
I thought she was the future I was investing in.
But my future sank just like my hopes.
My little pony had me on the ropes.
I was tethered to a losing proposition
Of despair, degradation and sin.
You have no idea the state I'm in.

Ruminations

I was thinking about Charles' Bukowski's edict:
'Endurance is more important than truth.'
But that don't mean I gotta do 15 shots
And drink 10 Bell's Ambers
To feel I fought the good fight.
The good fight is every day you
Manage to remain on this planet
With a modicum of sense
And have good companionship,
Be it friends, lovers, gay or straight.

The good fight is to have people
Struggling for the same goal,
Whether by choice or
Because they are forced to.
Your peers are the ones who are
Doing the same thing as you are.

It is better to have a relationship
With a group of like-minded individuals
Who are working for the same goal as you are.
But finding that like-minded individuals part
Is like trying to stop a heart beating
With your mind.
It's almost impossible.

I am rambling...
I am deadly serious.
I am completely clueless.
I just have to ask questions.
I have to ask questions
Until the door closes forever.
And I think there is only one door that does that.
But I could be wrong!

Pilgrims

I wish we were pilgrims again.
I wish the world was new again.
When the sight of rows of corn elicited excitement.
When they built campfires just for the pleasure of it.
When they didn't have to post about it to make it worthwhile
When they didn't have to like anything or hash tag it.
When life was only for the present.
And the simplest things transcendent.

I wish we were pilgrims again.
When they told ghost stories around a campfire
With only their imaginations to give them shape.
No special effects. No car crashes with daring escapes.
I wish the world was new again.
When they wrote letters and then had to wait.
Anticipation is lost today.

Now life is immediate.
Now everything is referenced.
Now we have no direction.
And we have to enshrine
All that is benign.
Now we catalog it for all to see.
From our shits to our appendectomy.

Sorry if I am cynical.
But life is so clinical.
We are detached from our own experience.
We have to like it to give it credence.
It's all so self-referential.
Including my own musings.
An irony not of my choosing.
I don't mean to be heavy-handed.
But that's what the words commanded.

I think I'm from another time.
Where poetry still had to rhyme.
When there was no mountain we couldn't climb.
And we still thought sunsets were sublime.
Where life was simple and pleasures few.
But there's one thing that I know is true.
Though this world is modern, it is far from new.

Desire

Desire is a beast.
Desire is a feast of the senses.
Desire is as immense as
The human mind can conceive.
Desire does not abate.
Desire cannot wait.

Desire is our undoing.
Desire is just screwing
With our heads and our hearts.
Desire makes us crazy.
Desire makes us lazy.
While we sit around yearning,
Deep inside we're burning.

Desire is the winner
Of the soul of every sinner.
Desire is unrelenting.
And after we need repenting.
Desire turns her tricks.
And there's nothing can fix
The need for her kiss.

Desire is forever.
And we will never
Escape her call.
Until we are laid,
Deep in our graves.
Desire promises rapture.
But to desire is to be captured.

Even the deepest holy man
Can maybe never understand
The power of her persuasion.
Desire does not spare you.
Desire will ensnare you.
Desire leaves you breathless.
Desire is your nemesis.

Desire can enslave us.
Desire wants to tame us.
Desire takes our will.
But when we give in to her,
We're still unfulfilled.
Desire is a mighty circle
Of eternal ceaseless pull.
Desire is invincible.

The worm in our apple

I found a worm in my apple.
Yes I was disgusted.
Yes I got rid of it.
But later I thought about it.
How much did the worm eat?
Weren't there parts
That didn't get eaten?

What did they do before
There were pesticides?
Did they throw away
The whole apple?
Did they say to themselves:
'I'd rather starve than eat
This disgusting apple!'

I'm sure they did not!
I'm sure they used the parts
That were not damaged.
I'm sure they said to themselves:
'We need to make do
With what we have.'
We need to not worry about
The worm in our apple.

Farmer's Daughter

I wanna live with a farmer's daughter.

She'll make me breakfast. 

She'll fetch me water.

She'll come to me in the morning

After milking the cows.

Her hands wet and warm.

She'll wipe them on her blouse.

I wanna live with a farmer's daughter.

She'll come to me in the morning

Just as the cock rises.

Her hands red from slaughter.

I'll say 'my dear you're full of surprises.'

And I'll show her a few of my own.

I wanna live with a farmer's daughter.

She'll come to me in the morning

Her hands chapped and rough

From squeezing udders.

I tell you my girl she'll be pretty tough.

But her body's soft, her mind uncluttered.

I'll never have to seek another.

Destiny is a big eater

Destiny is a big eater.
Destiny consumes and consumes.
Destiny is a big cheater.
Destiny is never going to lose.
Destiny never doubts himself.
Destiny never says I'm sorry.
Destiny says, "Make room!'

Destiny is not all destruction.
Destiny can be construction.
Destiny is a mighty force.
Destiny is the greatest source.
Destiny always gets his way.
Destiny never makes a mistake.
Destiny is here to stay.

Destiny has a heart of granite.
Destiny can destroy the planet.
Destiny is on top of his game.
Destiny has no shame.
Destiny plays for keeps.
Destiny says read em and weep.
Destiny cannot be tamed.