Saturday, December 27, 2014

The Princess





She's so damn pretty.
She's just my kitty.
But she loves me sincerely.
And I love her dearly.
She's the best investment
I ever made in happiness.
She's got such graces
In unusual places.

She's a little angel
With magnificent halo.
She's never unwitting.
She likes to be sitting.
She also likes to sleep
With kitty dreams deep.
She's my sweet baby.
And I don't mean maybe.

She doesn't know how to lie.
Or to hurt my feelings.
But on her I can't rely.
She's a simple little thing.
Without a bone of mean.
So I don't take it personally.
She's an amazing invention. 
She has no indiscretions.. 

How I love that girl!
She's the best in the world.
She loves me with honesty.
Oh, such a rarity!
Of something so pure
There is scarcity.
I am in bliss
From her kitty kiss.

I haven't given her a name.
For you it's a shame
If you never enjoy her company.
Her virtues are plain to see.
And her love is always free.
She comes at little cost.
Without her I'd be lost.
Her warmth melts my inner frost.







Useless Things





When I left my last apartment
There were things I didn't need to keep.
A hundred-eighty pound television
That nearly broke my back.
Some books read, and unread.
Some memories best left forgotten.
An end table, cooking utensils, a dying plant.
Humidity, faint light, and the stench
Of suffering and solitude.

I left the tall 60's era Dylan poster
That loomed too large
And made me feel insignificant.
I couldn't look Bob in the eye anymore.
But he didn't make a big deal about it.
Magnanimous gesture, that.

I left a cupboard full of food.
You would have eaten that food, Terrence.
You ate my food, you stole my things.
You were a vulture.
You preyed on the trusting.
I left your ghost in my apartment
Because you are dead to me.
You are a walking junkie corpse.
A sallow, thin-lipped piece of nothing.
Most of all I left you behind.

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Madness







It's not a club I'm in.
It's more a place within.
It's darkness and terror.
I don't know who is the starer
Who looks deep in my soul.
But I've got this funny notion
That it's a deadly potion
That can swallow me whole.

I'm trapped in this prison.
And it's my mission
To get myself free.
This place is dark and murky.
And it's far from perky.
Someone must have the key
That unlocks my joy.
Else I might be destroyed.

The world should be my oyster.
But I'm in here, cloistered.
Wish my gloom would disappear.
I'm hiding in the shadows.
As deep inside my fear grows.
I can't take the company
Of these demented foes.

I'm never completely certain
Of my own identity.
And it's a real burden.
Life is so confusing.
It's a war I keep losing.
I'm a victim of my own mind.
It's far from amusing
The way the knot binds.

I send out my appeal
To whoever feels
They have it all solved.
The simple is complicated.
Sanity is overrated.
And understanding is dissolved.
Guess I learned my lesson.
Life on earth is not for blessin. 

This is my struggle
To get out of the loony bin
To escape the hole that sucks me in.
It's really unclear
How I got in here.
But it seems that I can't win.
And I'm doomed to sin
And oblivion.

There is beauty in suffering
The madman in me keeps muttering.
You should jump off the train. 
You should embrace your pain.
Life is sadness and horror.
And madness and shame
And there is no restorer
And no one to blame.

This thing is dark that came out of me.
The monster inside has made me see
That there is no heaven and there is no bliss.
That we all are tainted by the devil's kiss.
He's the great deceiver.
And I'm a true believer.
I took the bargain.
But I'll never get my wish.








To someone far away







I never knew love could be so good.
Never knew a woman could be my water and my food.
Your love's so elevating.
You're the one for whom I've been waiting.
'Love' is a paltry word to describe
The way you make me feel alive.
Rapture's more the ticket.
Put it on a stamp and lick it.
Send it off to the heavens divine.

You're my lover and my muse.
You're the one I dare not lose.
You're a blast of sweet sunshine.
And I know you're mine all mine.
Though life's struggles get me down,
With you a smile replaces my frown.
You're an angel from above.
Might be spoiling me, too much love.
Your blessed heart I'm glad I've found.

I can't stop thinking about you baby.
And I know that one day maybe
We'll be in each others' arms for life.
You'll be my lover, my friend, and my wife.
You're my ultimate companion
Who I will never ever abandon.
Honey when you read these words
Hope your heart's all a flutter
Like winged birds.
And they find in me the best place to land in.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

I need to learn to fish





I need to learn to fish.
I throw my line in.
But I never get my wish.
My lure is my personality.
And I know how to disguise it
So my prey doesn't recognize it.
It's what fishermen do.
They use a deceptive lure.
It's the best way to capture
The fish at the end of the line.
But I've been waiting such a long time.

To fish is to be patient
To fish is to always be waiting.
It gets so damn frustrating.
My fish would love me
If she only knew
The amazing things I can do.
Guess I still haven't learned
The right technique.
Maybe my outlook is too bleak.
Maybe I'll never get the one I seek.

But I'll keep on throwing my line in.
One day I'll land a mermaid.
Then my happiness will be laid
She'll have beauty, she'll have charm.
She'll  be draped on my arm.
She'll tell me I'm so witty.
She'll be so fucking pretty.
She'll be the finest prize.
She'll be the queen of sighs.

I'm gonna keep on fishing.
I'm gonna keep on wishing.
I think she's somewhere calling.
But I wish she'd quit stalling.
And tell me I'm the one
That makes her life complete.
Whom she knows can't be beat.
See, I'm the real catch!
I just haven't met my match.



Sunday, December 7, 2014

I'm not interested in politics.





I'm not interested in politics.
I'm interested in what makes people tick.
Politics is a parlor trick.
Like a seal spinning a ball on its nose.
Our real needs are the ball that they throw.
The American people's suffering grows
While they put on their ludicrous show.

Politicians make me sick.
Politicians don't give a lick
About the struggles of the working class.
The American people bust their ass
While Congress sits in a palace of glass.
Indifferent and lacking vision.
Full of bickering and derision.

Republicans and Democrats
Are a bunch of fat cats.
Plump and over-fed.
Neither blue, nor red.
More just gray and dead.
Is this for what
Our forefathers bled?

We need a new party.
We need a new voice.
Between vanilla and vanilla
Is there really a choice?
I really don't see belief.
That's my primary beef.
It's rhetoric and white noise.

Politicians are easy to skewer.
They're full of manure.
They make me want to flush them down the sewer.
They lack all conviction.
They spin their gross fictions.
Why do the American people listen?

Monday, December 1, 2014

I bet on a horse





I bet on a horse and she didn't win.
And I kept on throwing money in.
I bet on a horse who I thought had duty.
But I was tricked by her exquisite beauty.
I bet on a horse and she was a dud.
Nearing the finish line she made a big thud.
And she dragged me right into the mud.

I bet on a horse and I thought she was regal.
Such beauty and grace was almost illegal.
Although she was a pretty little filly,
In the end she made me look silly.
I thought my success was well assured.
And that finally finally my luck had turned.
But she turned out to be nothing but a turd.

I bet on a horse and she didn't win.
The way I loved her was almost a sin.
Oh how I marveled when I touched her pelt.
You have no idea how good that felt.
She was a beautiful princess.
But I learned to mistrust
Her conniving ways.
Oh how her charms could sway.

I bet on a horse that I thought was my destiny.
I thought she was the future I was investing in.
But my future sank just like my hopes.
My little pony had me on the ropes.
I was tethered to a losing proposition
Of despair, degradation and sin.
You have no idea the state I'm in.