Madness

It's not a club I'm in.

It's more a place within.

It's darkness and terror.

I don't know who is the starer

Who looks deep in my soul.

But I've got this funny notion

That it's a deadly potion

That can swallow me whole.

I'm trapped in this prison.

And it's my mission

To get myself free.

This place is dark and murky.

And it's far from perky.

Someone must have the key

That unlocks my joy.

Else I might be destroyed.

The world should be my oyster.

But I'm in here, cloistered.

Wish my gloom would disappear.

I'm hiding in the shadows.

As deep inside my fear grows.

I can't take the company

Of these demented foes.

I'm never completely certain

Of my own identity.

And it's a real burden.

Life is so confusing.

It's a war I keep losing.

I'm a victim of my own mind.

It's far from amusing

The way the knot binds.

I send out my appeal

To whoever feels

They have it all solved.

The simple is complicated.

Sanity is overrated.

And understanding is dissolved.

Guess I learned my lesson.

Life on earth is not for blessin. 

This is my struggle

To get out of the loony bin

To escape the hole that sucks me in.

It's really unclear

How I got in here.

But it seems that I can't win.

And I'm doomed to sin

And oblivion.

There is beauty in suffering

The madman in me keeps muttering.

You should jump off the train. 

You should embrace your pain.

Life is sadness and horror.

And madness and shame

And there is no restorer

And no one to blame.

This thing is dark that came out of me.

The monster inside has made me see
That there is no heaven and there is no bliss.
That we all are tainted by the devil's kiss.
He's the great deceiver.
And I'm a true believer.
I took the bargain.
But I'll never get my wish.